home on a saturday night

4:00am: im sinking like a stone in the sea
so today was orientation, it was ok, lol i was there from 8 to 11 just hanging with people i havnt seen all summer. my schedual is ok i guess.

i also experienced the worst evening of my life today, have you ever wanted to leave somewhere because you were uncomfortable but you stayed cuz you had to, and everything woulda been better if you hadnt gone at all?...

but after that it was pretty cool i guess...

me and my cousin went to the waterfront at 2 and kicked it down there doing nothing for a couple hours, it was pretty cool. some quality bonding.

ive been looking at everything i wanted to be this year, and im trying to get there, but i just cant... i dont know what im going to do. theres so many things i want to say to people from fuck you to you changed my life for the better and im soo glad ive met you.

i havent really slept at all this week, like maybe 1 or 2 hours a night, im running on empty and going nowhere fast.




i <3 catwoman!

3:29pm: miserable and old....
so im in auburn and i have been kinda a mess lately, i miss the smile that in once wore...

last night i wathced edward scissor hands, its a classic.
i also bought the m.s.i. cd frakenstien girls will seem surprisingly sexy, its pretty bomb.

i havent been sleeping much and its really messing with my head, i feel like an emotional train wreck about 80% of my day, and i dont know what could help me....
i hope i can straighten myself out once school starts and i start working, but i just dont know whats going to happen next. but i am glad my best friend is home.













i wear dark sunglasses at night...

5:41pm: merph...
so i havent really done anything these last couple of days, but i have pulled 2 more allnighters since my last update. one of them was rad i went to breakfast at dennys with cam, kelsey, and michelle. then last night i was just watching tv and playing computer games till like 6:30. the other day i was at safeway like at midnight and these 20yr old guys started harrasing us and this lil wigger sophmore flipped out at his older guy and got ranked on sooo bad i was crackin up. but i guess thats all thats happened in the life of jared over the last couple of days, i'll keep ya posted on my other misadventures soon.

5:41pm: merph...
so i havent really done anything these last couple of days, but i have pulled 2 more allnighters since my last update. one of them was rad i went to breakfast at dennys with cam, kelsey, and michelle. then last night i was just watching tv and playing computer games till like 6:30. the other day i was at safeway like at midnight and these 20yr old guys started harrasing us and this lil wigger sophmore flipped out at his older guy and got ranked on sooo bad i was crackin up. but i guess thats all thats happened in the life of jared over the last couple of days, i'll keep ya posted on my other misadventures soon.

5:47am: hmmm
so its like 6am and i havent gone to bed yet, looks like another alnighter. i woke up and cleaned up the house and did some yardwork then sat around and played age of mythology. before i knew it it was time for dinner adn all my cousins were over. at about 10 we decided we should go to a movie, so i checked fandango to see that alien vs. predator was playing at midnight, so of course we went. it is amazing btw. at 1:45 when its over jordan gf sarah wants to go to bed but i have to go take my uncle to the airport at 4:30 adn i wanna do something still so we drop off sarah and switch cars, then head to denny's. i had a wicked awsome omlett. once me and jordan were done eating we hung out in the parking lot for another half hour then proceeded to go home. i get home and look at the clock and realize that i have half an hour to get back to my cousins house to pick up my uncle, so i grab the keys and buzz over there and pick him up for his 6:00 flight to italy. i drop him off at the airport and then head home just in time to see the sunrise over the lake, thats the second time ive seen the sunrise in the last week. i think i need a girlfriend to watch it with me sometime :/ .....

9:49pm: today
im sick. my left eardrum burst. i have to go to the doctor tommorrow.

so today me and cam went for a ride in the bronco, cam thought it would be funny to go over the round-a-bout instead of around it i look to the left adn theres a cop i knew were were screwed. we get pulled over and cam rolls down the window and then the cop says i bet you thought that was pretty cute, its gonna cost ya 350 bucks. cam also doesnt have 6 months up. thats another 71$. plus cam had no no proof of insurance or registartion in the car. thats another 450$. the cop didnt give us that he was kinda nice a bout it. but it was still a $408 ticket. the cop also wrote down my liscense number to confirm cam had a person under the age of 21 in the car. so if you'd like to donte to the save cam foundation please send you money to me or cam.



but on a lighter note my cousin hooked me up with an interview at the jewlery store he works at in factoria. thats the most bitchin job a highschool kid can have i get a decent hourly wage and after 90 days i make comission and i get a mass discount on all the products in the store.



today turned out to be pretty good for me not waking up till 4 plus i get to go to winter olympics in italy 2006! score.

3:17pm: settle
i just pulled an allnighter after the incubus concert andim feelin delicious.

i need money!



and im not going back to the AK. dont worry folks.

3:22am: cant sleep
its almost 3:30 and im still wide awake. i keep thinking about going back to alaska. im such a different person then when i left, i think i would be alot happier living there now then i was when i lived there last time...


p.s. mint milanos are yummy

4:09am: where am i at 4 in the morning?
When deadbolts awake you from deja vu dreams,
At 4 in the morning you know where I'll be
Out running red lights asleep at the wheel
The sirens feed my nightmares.
I just close my eyes and I’m already there;
Its already too late.
I know its nothing but lies,
But they sound so sincere;
I find them too hard to hate.

And she calls from the doorway "stolen water is sweet,
So lets drink it in the darkness if you know what I mean"
And she calls from the doorway "stolen water is sweet,
So lets drink it in the darkness if you know what I mean"

And I’m almost sure
That I've been here before,
That this is not the first time I’ve stood in front of this door,
With an overwhelming feeling that I shouldn’t go in,
But it seems this is a battle that I never could win.

Right now!
My true love!
You call from the hilltop.
You call through the streets,
"Darling don’t you know,
The water is poison."
And I say!
"Come on and give me my poison."

What have I done…?
Is it too late to save me from this place?
From the depths of the grave?
We all are those ..
Who thought we were brave…
What have I done…?






its 4ish and im downstairs on the couch watchin 28 days later its pretty good you all should see it.





donnie darko rules! i got a new picture its the one he has in his room of the eye with the skull in it.

4:10pm: bored
so its 4ish and im bored, lol ive been watching speed tv all afternoon, my white trashyness is showing.

1:57pm: so its like 2 in the afternoon and im sitting infront of my computer in my underwear.... goodtimes, im gonna miss summer. if you wanna hang b4 skool starts gimme a jingle 425-985-5024. oooooooo yeah (kool-aid guy)

1:25am: home!, but not for long
its 1:15 and im gettin ready to head out at 8 o clock tomorrow morning. i was just got home from rachels. that was pretty cool we wathced starky and hutchr, its a really goo movie. im kinda tired, aso i should make this kinda quick. im putting in a secret masssage of the girl i'm crushin on. I.M. me if you you were able/unable to figure out the puzzle. its pretty easy im you just look hard at it. p.s. im stoppin everything bad... dont think i can? wanna put some money on it?

1:10am:

so i have 2 hours before i have to get up to go to the airport. should i try to sleep? i am tired. i hope you all have fun without me.

i like her, but im afraid to give off the stalker vibe, i dont think she likes me anyway. lol rach, the stalker vibe.

i will try to update my lj from italy and keep you all posted on my hilarious adventures. i wonder if a can use america online instant messenger not in america?

2:42pm: So if you're lonely
You know I'm here waiting for you
I'm just a crosshair
I'm just a shot away from you.

And if you leave here
You leave me broken, shattered, I lie
I'm just a crosshair
I'm just a shot, then we can die.





so im leaving for italy in less than 16 hours. i have to be at the airport by 4:30 in the morning and dont get to rome until 8:30 the next morning. yippee....







she's beautiful and broken.....

9:00pm: nothing
its about 9 o'clock and im sitting here, just as ive done for the last 6 hours. ive done nothing all day, but got cleaned up hoping to leave. it sucks. i leave in 3 days, i should be hanging with friends and having fun before i leave, not sitting in my world of nothingness. is there nothing out there for me?....



take me out......

12:24am: so laura just left. that was interesting. we talked for a while.


ive had a couple drinks. yumm the mike hard lime is gooood! i gave my cousin jason a shot of tequilla, that kid has potential. my dad was like jared no more, and i was like ok dad ; ) im not even buzzed.











o look the girl i like just signed on!

2:18am: i just got home from anchorman, it was pretty sweet.






i heard some good news from rach today. btw congrats on ur boy.



i see everything in a thousand shades of red. now that the scales are falling from my eyes.

4:22pm: my nine rides shotgun
pretty good brand new song, unrealeased?
im me if you want it.



This happened before and I'm sure it'll happen again
It's getting old, I could never know
This is not the first time, she says it’s the last time again
(And you're a tease)
Have fun overseas

(No, I'm kidding)

Give it some time
Take my advice
See all these scars on me
I'm just marking territory
but I know a million girls would kill to be you right now.

gIve me one night inside of your thoughts
a million girls would kill to be you
right now

And it’s happened before, and it'll happen again

When your boyfriend comes home I should guess he keeps you
Terribly close, and you'd never know
Wouldnt be the first time
dont think this will ever end
(and you're a tease)
Have fun studying alone

(No I'm kidding)

Give it some time
Take my advice
See all these scars on me
I'm just marking territory

But I know a million girls would kill to be here right now.
GIve me one night inside of your thighs
A million girls would kill to be you right now

And it’s happened before
It'll happen again

One thing a girl I want is going to come
its like you're like a zombie when we're together.



it sounds pretty sweet. those are the lyrics

11:12pm: tired
im tired,
im tired of the plateau.
im tired of pretending to care.
im tired of the lame excuses.
im tired of everyone elses problems.
im tired of watching everyone else.
im tired of all of it.



this is the end.....




i leave with a kiss farewell.

9:24pm: bored/lonely
im bored....



and i need a girlfriend.....















who needs a boyfriend?......









paris hilton would do nicely.....

4:07pm: italia
so im going to italy on the 13th i come back the 24th, i was supposed to go the 5th, but it didnt work out so i leave a week later... but still 10 days in italy is way better than 10 days in Sammamish. woop woop theres no drinking age in italy......




hold on tight, and wish me luck

2:12pm: so its fathers day and we went to try and launch the boat at the lake, along with 75 other people and the parking lot was full and they had closed off the entrance and there is a line of people trying to get in.... it sucks. so im doing finals shit and listing to music in the sun so it shouldn't be a total loss of a day, i can always work on my tan.


will someone please call me a surgeon who can crack my ribs and repair this broken heart that you're deserting for better company.

5:10pm: so i had to go to appeals for my absents in advisory, i wasnt sure what to say, i think it went good, but if it didnt fuck advisory. i'll walk in there tomorrow and say well i lost credit, and then say see ya next year and never go back, but my dad's gonna kick my ass if they dont give me credit. i'll keep ya posted on my super exciting life...


-jared

4:53pm: so i just made this because im a loser....
now i think im going to go to alexs house and sit and do nothing over there instead of doing nothing at my house...
until next time.

-jared